暮光同人aliceXbella英文版分章阅读 11

She could tell Bella, try to explain how hard it had been for her stop when she had her pressed against the wall earlier. She could tell her how, even after Bella had slapped her and she realized what had been going on, it had been a struggle for her to back away, and then to stay in one place. She could try to make Bella understand that she'd had to fight with everything that she had, marshal together every ounce of her will power to keep herself rooted in that spot. She tell her how her love for Bella had been warring with her instinct to kill, the internal struggle tearing at her until she had been half crazy with fear and frustration, screaming into the night for some kind of release．

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She could try to tell Bella all of that, but she knew it wouldn't work. Bella wouldn't, or couldn't believe her. She would say something like, 'See how strong you are? This is why I trust you. This is why I'm not afraid,' and then she would hug her and kiss her and tell her how wonderful she was．

The trust Bella had in her would never waver, Alice was sure of that. She could have had her teeth buried in Bella's neck and Bella would have held onto the belief that she would pull herself away any second, believing that thought right until the last drop of blood in her body was drained and her life slipped away．

Alice sighed and breathed in deeply, Bella's tantalizing scent washing over her, making her tingle. She clenched her teeth and closed her eyes, willing her hands to stay put, to not start caressing Bella's body like she wanted to; to not take Bella's face in her hands and kiss her until their minds were hazy and their bodies trembling．

Bella was just so tempting, so very tempting, in every way imaginable．

It was impossible for her to resist．

The rules she had come up with were a paper wall, and their emotions were a flood. There was no way it could hold them back, protect them. They were lame-duck laws, utterly useless, and they were now lying in a broken heap at the bottom of Bella's bed along with Alice's clothes and the wrapping paper．

"G'night, Alice," Bella murmured, her voice heavy with sleep．

"Good night, Bella," Alice whispered, her voice stricken as she realized what she had to do．

Bella's eyes fluttered for a few seconds then closed; Alice's body strong and secure beside her, quickly lulling her into a pleasant, dreamless slumber．

Bella awoke the next morning feeling oddly warm, and knew immediately that something was wrong．

Ｈer heart beginning to pound in her chest, Bella's eyes flew open and her head immediately turned to the side．

She sucked in a deep breath, her stomach churning as she looked at the space beside her．

Alice was gone．

Bella placed her hand on the mattress where Alice's body had been the night before, her eyes closing as she felt the gentle warmth of it．

Alice had been gone for a while．

Bella brought her hand up to her face, covering her eyes with it as she felt tears begin to sting her eyes．

Alice was gone．

Bella drew her knees up, and wrapped her arms around them tightly. She then rested her forehead against them. She sat still for a moment, breathing deeply, blinking again and again. After a few seconds however, a chocked sob escaped from her throat, and with the vocalization of her pain, she began to cry．

She began to cry, because somehow she knew, she just knew. In that ancient, primordial part of her that quaked at the sound of thunder, Bella knew, just knew, that she wasn't going to see Alice again for a very long time．

To be continued

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新章节6

Title: The Edge (Part 6 – Good World Gone Bad）

Author: JanineFandom: TwilightPairing: Alice/BellaRating: PGDisclaimer: All characters are owned by Stephanie Meyer. I'm just borrowing them．

Summary: At school Bella discovers why she woke up alone．

When Bella arrived at school she forced herself to stay calm and keep breathing, to put one foot in front of the other, and repeated to herself over and over again that everything was fine as she made her way to Edward．

When she arrived at the Cullen's Volvo she couldn't see Alice around anywhere, but that didn't mean anything, she told herself. That was perfectly normal. Alice very rarely waited for her with Edward in the morning, that was his routine, not hers. There was no reason to worry because she wasn't there．

There was no reason to worry, just like there was no reason to worry that Alice had left before she had woken up. Ｈer crying that morning meant nothing. She wasn't Alice, she wasn't prescient. She didn't know anything. Ｈer fear, her crying, they were just brought on by lack of sleep. There was nothing to worry about. Nothing. Alice had probably just had to return home, to hunt, or to tell Esme and Carlisle where she had been. Unlike Edward, Alice didn't spend most of her nights away from the house, and after the events of the party her extended absence might have worried them. There was nothing to worry about．

Everything was fine．

Everything was fine．

"Morning," Bella said, forcing a smile on her face as she reached Edward, the smile wavering as she took in his straight back and stoic features．

"Good morning," Edward said. The timber of his voice was as sweet as ever but his posture remained rigid and his tone formal．

'There is nothing to worry about, nothing', Bella chanted in her mind．

"Is Alice around?" Bella asked, trying to keep her voice as casual as possible. "I was hoping to talk to her before class," she continued, thinking 'everything is fine, everything is fine' again and again．

Edward looked down at her, staring at her for a moment and then reached into his jacket, removing an envelope from its inner pocket. Ｈe held the envelope in his hand, his thumb stroking the paper thoughtfully for a second, and then he handed it over to Bella．

Bella looked down at it curiously．

Ｈer name was written on it in Alice's beautiful antiquated hand-writing．

"No," Bella said automatically. She shoved the envelope into Edward's body, and began to shake her head back and forth. "No," she said again, pressing the envelope against his granite chest, trying to get him to take it away．

She wasn't going to read it. She wasn't even going to open it. She didn't want it in her possession. She didn't even want it in her sight. 'It doesn't exist', Bella thought squeezing her eyes shut. 'It doesn't exist'．

"Bella," Edward said softly, pressing the envelope back into her hand, curling her fingers around it. "She " he started to say, but Bella continued to shake her head back and forth, again and again．

Edward stopped talking. Ｈe knew that she wasn't listening to him．

"I don't accept it," Bella said, looking at him, focusing on him finally. "You tell her that I don't accept it," she continued as tears beginning to form in her eyes. "You tell her that I want to talk to her. You tell her " Bella went on, her voice rising as the first few tears began to fall, her tone becoming hysterical enough that passerbys were beginning to look at her．

"I can't," Edward interjected regretfully, placing a hand on her shoulder to try and calm her down．

Ｈe glanced around them, nodding at a few people who were watching them curiously, willing them to go on their way. A few seconds later he turned his eyes back to Bella, watching her keenly, surprised by the panic in her eyes．

Ｈe rubbed her shoulder gently, trying to sooth her. Ｈe had expected her to react badly, but not this badly. Ｈe knew that she and Alice had become close, that they had begun to spend almost every minute Bella wasn't him together, but he hadn't realized quite how emotionally attached the two of them had gotten．

Bella was trembling like a leaf beneath his hand. Ｈer skin had become even paler than it normally was, it was becoming dotted with sweat, and he could hear her heart beating erratically in her chest. She was on the verge of having a fit．

"They're gone," Edward said softly, trying to keep his voice as soothing as possible, hoping that it would penetrate Bella's consciousness and actually comfort her. Ｈe didn't understand the strength of her reaction to the news, but he couldn't deny the severity of it and he needed to get her to calm down. "They left this morning," he went on stroking her shoulder tenderly with his thumb．

Bella blinked, shell-shocked. "They " she started to ask, before realizing that Edward meant Jasper had left with Alice, "left for where?" she asked, practically choking on the words．