暮光同人aliceXbella英文版分章阅读 19

"Is it?" Bella asked laughing a little. "Did my answer unintentionally reveal something fascinating about my psyche to you?" she continued smiling. "Ｈave I unconsciously revealed that I used to be a bed wetter, or that I have a strange aversion to squash and alpacas?”

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Alice laugher tinkled through the room. "Well," Alice began thoughtfully, "if you were a bed wetter, it would explain the aversion to squash and alpacas.”

Bella stared at her. "It would?" she asked dubiously, wondering how the three things could possibly be connected．

"No," Alice said shaking her head sadly, laughing a second later and then ducking to the side when Bella reached up to slap at her．

"My turn," Bella said, mock glaring at Alice after all of her attempts to hit Alice had been thwarted by the raven-haired beauties vampire speed. "Dog or cat?”

"Cat," Alice replied, eyes narrowing at Bella when the younger woman smiled up at her smugly. "What?”

"I knew you were going to say that," Bella said, reaching up to trace her fingertip across Alice's cool cheek. "You're like a cat," she murmured softly, her tone reflective as her fingers drifting down Alice's delicate, yet powerful arms．

"Is this your gentle way of telling me that I should lick myself less, and stop clawing at the houseplants?" Alice asked, her eyes wide with faux concern, her expression causing Bella to laugh. "Because I'm just being hygienic and, they're springy and fun to play with.”

Bella stared at Alice for a second, and then a huge grin broke out across her face before she shook her head from side to side. "You're not funny," she mumbled, but her eyes were still dancing with laughter and exactly the opposite sentiment was transmitted to Alice．

"I think I may be," Alice responded, taking in Bella's smile with happy eyes. "Just a little bit," she continued holding her thumb and index finger minutely apart, as she smiled herself．

"Funny looking," Bella responded automatically, making a funny face at Alice．

Alice sighed deeply and murmured, "Now you're just being mean," before her features rearranging themselves into a comically tragic mask of hurt and despair．

"Meanly wonderful," Bella retorted, smiling as she recalled the conversation in her room months before that had led to their first kiss．

"Oh, we're back to that are we?" Alice asked smiling delightedly. "Ah, fuzzy memories," she sighed, bending down to press her lips against Bella's forehead．

"Fuzzily wonderful," Bella breathed out contently, her hand drifting behind Alice's neck, pulling her down for another, slightly longer kiss．

"Wonderfully wonderful," Alice murmured against Bella's lips, kissing her one more time before pulling back．

"I hope you're pleased with yourself," Bella said softly as Alice settled against the back of the couch once more．

"I usually am," Alice responded seemingly unconcerned with the randomness of Bella's comment. "Why?”

Bella answered by pointing an accusing finger in Alice's direction and intoning, "You've done it now.”

"Done what now?" Alice asked curiously, looking down at Bella's face, before playful snapping her teeth at Bella's finger, pressing a kiss against the tip of it when Bella kept on pointing at her, not intimidated in the least by her snapping．

Bella smiled and then pulled back her hand. Alice considered her for a moment and then reached out herself, poking the tip of Bella's nose with her finger．

Bella laughed and swatted her hand away．

"You've turned my clever way of changing sentences around on itself," Bella said finally answering Alice's question, swatting at Alice's hand again as the vampire tried to poke her once more. "Now there's nowhere we can take it. We're just going to go back and forth saying 'wonderfully wonderful' until our heads start to turn 360 degrees. Then smoke will begin to come out of our ears and our heads pop off. Like that computer in War Games. Then where will we be? Ｈuh, smartass? Where will we be then?”

Alice was quiet for a moment, considering everything Bella had just said, her lips twitching in danger of smiling before she managed to get herself under control. She then brought her hand up to and stroked her chin thoughtfully, pretending to deliberate before she focused her gaze on Bella once more．

"I'm going to pretend like I don't know you right now," Alice declared looking down at Bella like she was an unfortunate of some kind, like she was a girl in shorts who had tattoos of pears on the back of both of her legs or something．

"Oh, shut up," Bella said, smiling warmly up at Alice nonetheless．

"Why am I like a cat?" Alice asked a few seconds later, her eyes soft and curious as she looked down at Bella．

"You're graceful," Bella said softly, "every time you move it's like a dance. I could watch you just walk all day," she continued, surprised and delighted that the revelation did not make her blush. "There's something sublime, almost unearthly about the way a cat moves, like they occupy some other world that we can only begin to guess at. It's the same with you. Sometimes I find it hard to believe that you're real," Bella whispered, "that something as magnificent as you could really exist," she continued．

Alice blinked rapidly in response to her words, almost as if tears were actually forming in her eyes. She stroked Bella's face, her lips parted as if to say something, but no words feel from her lips．

"Then of course, there's your eyes," Bella added trying to lighten the conversation and return the mood between them to the light, playful way it had been before she had gotten way too serious answering Alice's question．

"Sometimes," Alice began blinkingly slowly, "when I'm around you, I swear I can feel my heart beating, wildly, in my chest," she continued, shaking her head as she spoke. "My heart hasn't beat for a very long time, the phantom thumps should be long over," she went on, "but at times, like now," she said her voice lowering. "It feels so real, as if somehow by loving me, you've brought me back to life.”

Bella's eyes closed, and she breathed in and out very slowly, trying to control her emotions. Alice's words should have made her heart sing with joy, but instead her heart contracted painfully in her chest．

She wouldn't be able to handle Alice leaving again if she continued to say things like that to her. She loved Alice, quite madly, of that she was sure, but she knew that she would never have Alice completely, and it killed her inside a little when Alice said such sweet things, because they made her heart believe, if only for a moment, that she could have Alice, forever．

"What is it?" Alice asked softly, stroking Bella's cheek. "What did I say?" she asked, her voice a touch anxious．

She could practically feel Bella's distress, and wanted to help alleviate it, but she didn't know what she had done to cause it in the first place．

"Alice," Bella said, working very hard to force the name past her lips. She was about to bring up a subject that she had tried very hard to ignore since she had curled up in Alice's lap the evening before, and she wasn't looking forward to it. "Why why did you let this happen?" she asked, motioning between them. "Last night, and in your letter, you said that you left because you didn't want to hurt Jasper. You said that you couldn't be with me because of him. But now," Bella said sighing, "it's like you're not worried about that anymore. Why is that?”

Alice closed her eyes and breathed in deeply, taking a moment to gather her thoughts．

"Jasper and I have been together a very long time," Alice said finally, her eyes opening again as she spoke. "A lifetime," she breathed out. "Longer than even the happiest of couples are often married. Ｈe knows me, very well," she continued, focusing her attention on Bella completely. "Ｈe knew something was bothering me; that something had changed, and didn't question me when I suggested we leave for a while.”

Ｈer eyes drifted away from Bella's and began to roam around the room．

"But leaving didn't change anything. I was still distant distracted," she sighed. "I tried not to talk about you. I knew Jasper would be able to pick up on my confusion and distress, but when Carlisle, Esme and Edward joined us, your name came up quite a bit and Jasper eventually he was able to decipher the tangle of emotions that your name brought up me. Ｈe asked me about it, and I couldn't lie to him. I wouldn't. After all of the time we've been together, he deserved the truth from me, no matter how potentially hurtful.”

Alice closed her eyes, clamping them tightly together. Bella squeezed Alice's hand encouragingly, but said nothing, giving her the time she needed．

"Things were rough for a while after I told him," she continued a little while later. "But eventually, he accepted that I hadn't meant to fall in love with you, and that once I had, there was nothing that I could do to stop the feelings, not really. I think it meant something to him, that I tried, that I suggested we leave.”

Alice sighed deeply then, her hand moving up to her head so that her fingers could tangle in her hair, pulling at the short strands anxiously．

"Despite my revelation, he knew that I still loved him, deeply, and so we cared on. Me trying very hard not to think of you in his presence and him ignoring it when I did and my emotions would bleed through to him.”

Alice breathed in and then exhaled heavily, her eyes finally dropping down to look at Bella, to see how she was dealing with the information. Ｈer features were slightly pinched, but Bella held her hand warmly, and her eyes were open, encouraging her to continue．

"When I called, last night to tell him you were alive," she went on, "What he heard in my voice I can't even " she murmured softly, almost to herself as she shook her head rapidly from side to side. "Ｈe he told me to follow my heart, and that," she paused, struggling for a moment to continue, "and that no matter where it led me, that we'd work through it." She touched Bella's cheek, the backs of her fingers brushing reverently against her warm flesh. "It was as close as he could come to giving me his blessing.”

Bella closed her eyes, her heart constricting painfully as she thought about Jasper's selflessness and his giving．

"Ｈe's " Bella began struggling to find the words．

"Yeah," Alice whispered softly, her lips curving up into a soft smile before she breathed in deeply and began to blink rapidly once again．

Bella knew that she would be crying if she could, and she lifted her hand to Alice's cheek, stroking away the imaginary tears．